Considering the history of "you's" and "i's"

i'm not really sure how long this will last
[[considering the history of "you's" and "i's"]]
and the nature of restless mixed with
discontent. hint of boredom.
lack of all that's necessary,
but the taste of potential.
caught. caught. caught.
in the skin,
under every thought.

i don't know how long
this "without"
[[considering the history of "you's" and "i's"]]
mixed with need for rest
and life at multitudinous
increments will last in the
surge of need. surge of desire.

i don't know how long
this business of "apart"
[[considering the history of "you's" and "i's"]]
is going last before my desperate fingers
begin ripping at the walls and seams
of the place that keeps my heart
from being where it
has to be.
to breathe.